A few days ago I sat in this exact spot, my heart in turmoil, with fears and anxiety, playing the "what if" game. I don't like that game and, truth be told, that game can rip a person apart, which is what it was doing to me. I've never been a person of doubt, self pity, or negativity, which is probably why I was hit so hard by those thoughts and emotions. I felt like I was drowning and the only way out was an instant, full, and complete recovery for my son. I prayed for peace. I prayed, not for health and recovery of the body, but health and recovery of my soul, so that I could continue to be the pillar of strength that is so desperately needed in our current situation.
I can't say that my inner peace came instantly, it took a few days. It takes me a little bit to find my inner calm, but I can say that as I sat in the lobby, listening to a volunteer playing beautiful piano music I knew my storm had passed, and I wonder now, as I listen to the fountain and take in the beautiful colors of the garden all around me, how many others have found their peace in the serenity of a garden.
You are such a beautiful person Christy. On the outside of course, but more so on the inside. You are strong, and gentle and an inspiration. I don't know how you do it sometimes, but you do and you do it with grace. I love you and your family so much...funny how things work out. When we were doing Scouts I always knew there was something about your family...but we were always too busy to figure out what that was...now with the beauty of Facebook, I feel like we are somewhat closer friends. I look forward to exploring that more...I am always praying for those boys and their family and now I will add that you continually find peace in the turmoil. Love you guys...Mel
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